Thursday, December 24, 2009

Bah Humbug



This is the worst part of the year for me sometimes. This is the time when the fanatics get extra fanatical and the hypocrites give and then get mad about it privately. They feel they must give because of an obligation to religion or tradition or whatever reason they have.

I don't need a reason to give. I don't need a reason to live. I don't need to keep searching for something that can't be proven, wasting my life and in the end wondering where my life went.

I like the spirit of Christmas, but not what it stands for. Why can't we have this spirit all year long and for no reason at all? Why do we have to celebrate a mans birthday, who was born in March, in December?

Why can't family get together all year long? Most families hate each other. At least all of the ones I have ever known with out exception. I just had to get this out.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

No time for everything I want to do....

Life is short for someone like me and there is never enough time to do everything I want to do. I have so many things I love; music (especially music), movies, reading (something that is necessary for humans to exercise the mind), playing games, designing grafix and even writing. I started my blog just to write down how I am feeling and maybe express some of my views and yet writing is really at the bottom of the list and I don't even have time for all the things higher on the list.

Life is hard for many people and always has been and always will be, but it is especially hard for people in the U.S. right now and especially a normal person like me with a criminal record. The simple facts are that 1/100 men in the U.S. have been to prison and even more than that have a criminal record because of the vast amount of ignorant laws of stupid things that old people set. We really only need maybe 25% (estimation) of existing laws. We fill our prisons up with people at the expense of tax payers with mostly people who are not felonious evil people and yet for some reason people assume that if you have been arrested or in prison that you must be a bad person. That is ridiculous. Most people in prison are not crazed killers or evil. As a matter of fact, most people in prison have compassion and love for their family and friends and many are highly intelligent. I will not sit and argue about who needs to be in prison. In my opinion the only people who deserve prison are sick child molesters, sex offenders and people who kill people with out a good reason. And yes, there are good reasons to kill someone. If a man molested my child not only would I kill him, but I would torture him for many days and I would feel that I did the right thing and any good father feels the same as I do.

The unemployment rate in the U.S. is skyrocketing. My state has one of the highest rates in the U.S. and my city has the one of the highest if not the highest rate in the state and business are still laying more and more people everyday. It is hard enough for a perfect citizen to get a job let alone a person like me who has made mistakes in their life. People say to go to the cities to find work that there has to be work there, but for one thing that is what many people do and now they are flooding the cities with people looking for work and the jobs are rare there now as well. And we don't all know someone in the cities to move there. Here I have a place to lay my head at night and (some) food in my belly. If there ever comes a time that I am homeless then maybe I will go be homeless in Chicago. I get tired of hearing people who are lucky enough to have a job complain about going to work. You don't want to work? Give me your job I will gladly take it. If you want a job at McDonalds nowadays (at least where I am from) you have to be a teenager who is willing to work only 16 hours a week and get sent home early

I have spent so much time since the bad economy started failing focusing on my graphic design so that when the economy does start to pick back up I can will have a great portfolio if show when I try to get work. It has been growing and growing and every piece I do gets better and better. I am proud of my work and there are many people who love my work and want work from me, but no one can afford even the cheapest work. Foreigners (and some from the U.S.) who want work that I do just go to freelance sites where an Indian from India will do a $120 piece for $5. These people will spend a 3, 4 sometimes 5 days working on something for $5. $5? In the U.S. $5 doesn't get you much at all. In India they can feed their families with it. Even if I take the job, most of the time they have 4 other people working on it and then I am not even guaranteed that I will get paid for the work.

Anyway this is my situation lately. I haven't been around here because I spend most of my time designing grafix and if you care to see my portfolio the please click the button below and be sure to comment and tell me what you think.

A few of my latest pieces:
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Click button below to view my 4 page portfolio:
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Friday, August 28, 2009

Dneero Test

Friday, August 14, 2009

New grafix...

I havn't really had time to really blog in a long time. Photoshop and now Cinema 4D have taken up alot of my time and the results are just great I think. I still have ways to go before I get famous making the next Shrek movie, but I am getting there. I meant to start this blog as my own personal journal and I did write for a short while, but not much in the last few months. Just been using it for Dneero.

Most of my grafix are posted in my portfolio at my grafix website: New Pride Grafix Portfolio, but I figured I'd pst a few here. This is some of my latest Photoshop work:






and the only 3D Animation I have ever done (just learning):



I'll start writing on here more soon... I hope.

Check out my website to see a whole lot more....

Saturday, August 8, 2009

New Dneero, pretty interesting one this time...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

And again:

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Another Dneero convo.

It's been a short while: